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I Make Felt Dolls!!

Hey!!

I don’t know whether or not I’ve written much about the story of my StitchUps dolls..

These are the first 2 that I ever made:

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I started making my felt dolls in my last year of school. To read about the beginning, click here. Fast-forward a couple of years ….

To be honest, I haven’t made a lot of dolls these last couple of years. I stopped for a while, not enjoying the process of making them since I lost a lot of custom. See, a few years ago a friend of a friend had a small shop in a town where they sold their own handmade cards. This person took most of my dolls and sold them for me, not asking for any percentage at all. One day when I went along to the shop to see how things were going, it was completely bare and nobody was there.. This person just happened to disappear, apparently hadn’t paid to rent the space and upped and left without saying a word. So I suddenly lost 20 – 30 of my dolls out of nowhere and obviously it stumped me for a bit and I didn’t feel up to making them for some time. Since then, I simply haven’t made dolls as often as I used to at all ((I used to make 3 – 4 dolls a month, now I make about 3 – 4 a year, outside of requests)).

So before Christmas I got a request on my Etsy shop to make a doll of a character from a particular computer game, Five Nights at Freddy’s. Heard of it??

It’s a fantastic horror game and if you haven’t heard of it I recommend checking it out!! ..Just, not on your own!!

Anyways, so I received this request and decided to accept the challenge and personally I don’t think it turned out too badly..

Say Hello to FREDDY FAZBEAR :

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What do you think??

It took quite a while to make, having been busy over the Christmas period and New Years, but right now I have plenty of time again to get creative!!

I would happily make Freddy again and experiment with other themed characters like this.

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I made a Smurf a while ago for a Smurfs-obsessed friend, but this time I’m a lot happier with how the Freddy doll resembles the character. I’m happy with how my dolls have progressed since I began making them in 2009 …. Wow. That is a long time!!

I’ve been getting a few customers on my Etsy shop, not a lot, but every now and then. But I’m happy to make them as and when people want them, so that I can take extra care making each one. 🙂

 
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Posted by on January 19, 2015 in Crafts, Serious Stuff

 

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50 Books in 2015

It’s 2015.

I haven’t made any resolutions, but I have a few goals. Some of them with Pat, some by myself..

My first goal is to read and complete 50 books this year. I’m keeping a list of what I’m reading, so far I’m halfway through my second book, The Drowning of Arthur Braxton and it’s magical. That’s the only word I can really put to it.

Another goal that is both Pat’s and mine, is to visit 4 countries this year. We’re really looking forward to this one, as a couple who really want to see the world, as people who watch YouTubers travelling the world all the time and wishing that we could do it, too.

Goal no. 3 I suppose is to find happiness. Not obsess over weight or healthy eating or size or shape. But to find my ideal. How to be happy in and with my body.

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Posted by on January 9, 2015 in Serious Stuff

 

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Hello.

Again.

I haven’t been here for a very long time. I guess you could say that I took a “gap-year”. Well, without all the excitement and I’m not going back to studying or anything….

I wish I could say that my anxiety took a gap-year, too, but annoyingly it decided to cling to me with a vengeance, so that it’s hard to get back to, well, life.

When I write like this I really do hope that someone can relate ((though I wouldn’t wish this upon anyone)), just so that somebody else might understand what it feels like to be shrouded in anxiety and depression and feel as if they have little control over anything.. A lot of you may be thinking that this sounds dramatic. Unfortunately this is how it is. And this blog is really the only place I can express how it feels, without being ridiculed or told to “take life less seriously” or “stop over-thinking”.

Sorry, I didn’t wish you a happy New Year. I hope you had a great one, and a very merry Christmas, too!!

I spent most of Christmas day with the bigger part of my family ((aka my Dad’s side – Grandparents, Aunt, Uncle, cousins and their partners, my Dad and Pat)). We usually have this get-together on Boxing Day, but this year my Dad and my partner had to work Boxing Day. We had a good day. Lots of smiles and laughs and jokes.

My eldest cousin has that app on her phone where you can control the TV, and my Aunt is always excited to watch the Queen’s Christmas day speech. My cousin put on last years speech with her phone, the few of us in the know were really struggling not to laugh as she had no idea and somehow didn’t realise that baby Prince George hadn’t aged a year..

So, this is late ((very late considering I haven’t blogged for over a year)) but I hope that you are enjoying 2015 so far and, if you have made any New Years resolutions, that you’re not being hard on yourself.

 
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Posted by on January 5, 2015 in Serious Stuff

 

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Finally Caught A Break!!

Woohoo!!

I finally feel like I’ve just caught a break in my life 🙂

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After loads of waiting, sitting around, not knowing WHAT to do with myself for months and months, I have a job. An alright job. That may turn more permanent, depending on how I do!!

I had 3 days of work at the Kent County Show, selling Strawberries & Cream, fruit salads, other fruit, smoothies, OJ and water. It was great!! So much fun and I honestly wish that I could do it full-time!! But alas, it was only the 3 days of the show. Hopefully the guy running the fruit stalls will call me again the next time he’s in the area, because I loved doing it and all the team were really friendly and great 🙂 . But ahh well, for now I have other things to focus on..

..Like making a new StitchUp for a friend of my Mum’s:

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Like my new job!! So, what am I doing?? Well, I’m working at a tiny café at a country park, just a couple of miles from my home. I’m just selling ice creams, cold food and hot and cold drinks, as well as serving and cleaning up, so it could just be a summer thing, as they are much busier and need help in the summer. But hopefully it will turn into more than that. They have already increased my hours to 32 a week, from 20!! Though I don’t agree with what they sell ((me being vegan, and it being a traditional café)), it is a job, a job at last. Something that I have been waiting for ((again..)) for far too long. I no longer need to go crazy 😉 woohoo!!

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I’ve been fuelling up on fruit – lots of it!! Loading up on carbs and as many summer fruits as we can afford!! I’ve been riding to and from work most days ((I started last Monday)), but not been cycling much more than that, so only about 5 miles a day right now, mainly due to the intense heat!!

Since I have been cycling more this year generally, I have felt happier and more alive and energetic. One problem though – I got low iron from increasing my activity so much :/ – I went to give blood last month and they told me that my iron was too low to give. Iron deficiency is the most common amongst mineral deficiencies, and, depending on absorption, shouldn’t be too hard to remedy. So what have I been doing to up my levels??

EATING WATERMELON!! Yup, half of a large watermelon ((a favourite breakfast for me)) is 30% of my iron requirements in one day 🙂 who knew!!??

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So should have no problem with bumping up my iron again..

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This was in September last year – around the time that I found the high-carb lifestyle. It’s not a big melon at all, really!!

Unfortunately, I’ve been lacking in the photography department ((apart from of fruit, of course 😉 )), as I’ve been more busy and it’s slipped my mind. Hopefully tomorrow ((my day off)) and over the summer I’ll snap some photos of outside, animals, people and this weather!! For now, this is the most recent photo I have, really:

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Oops, that’s another fruit pic – my current haul, actually 😛 . Well, here are a couple of snaps from Cornwall last year, as this weather is reminding me of that holiday right now….

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Maybe I’ll get around to making that WIAW post soon…. 🙂

Enjoy the rest of your summer!!

 
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Posted by on July 24, 2013 in Crafts, Photography, Serious Stuff

 

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A Personal Story To Look Back On..

Warning – This is a serious post and it took a lot to write it. This is more a personal story for me to look back on, than a post for everyone, so if you want to read it, do. But you have been warned.

Over the years, I have had a growing interest in health and well-being. Of course, a few years ago, I had a bad relationship with food, and was also diagnosed with moderate-to-severe depression. I have always had an issue with medications, pills, tablets of any kind, worrying that it wasn’t natural or good to put chemicals like that into my body. So, I researched and researched, looking for alternatives. I asked my G.P, who said that there was no other way but medication ((but what does he know..)). So, reluctantly, after putting up with the symptoms for months, I finally agreed to take the prescription. I took the tablets ((Prozac)) for a while and felt really tired, all of the time. Soon I even started to hear and see things that weren’t there – all the time.. I still don’t know if that was the medication, or my anxiety, but it scared me. I was feeling worse. I wanted out, now. My Dad talked me into taking the medication for a bit longer, just to see if I was adjusting, but it had already been over 5 months, and I felt terrible. I soon had to start going to work with my Dad, my anxiety growing so bad that I was afraid to be alone..

So, at month 7, I went back to my doctor after a day at college, and explained what had been going on ((with Pat beside me)). He was very confused, saying that nobody ever had so many side-effects from that particular medication, but agreed that I could gradually stop taking them. After a couple of weeks coming off them slowly, I felt a lot better than I had before. I wasn’t as tired, I could sleep most nights and I could stay at home on my own again without being terrified by my thoughts. But, the depression still lingered, and after a while, worsened again….

One day at college, only a few months before the end of the course, I was consumed with anxiety and feeling extremely emotional. Even a raised voice would scare me :/ which sounds pretty silly, now. I felt like I had crashed. I couldn’t concentrate on the project I was working on, nothing made any sense, the words had no meaning. It was pretty scary, and I got so worried that I walked out at the break. I walked down into town and got the soonest bus home, trying not to cry, looking behind me every 5 minutes, with a feeling that I was being followed.. Yup, I was extremely paranoid, too.

My depression and paranoia have caused many arguments with Pat in the past, and I can never thank him enough for being there for me. Slowly, every day, things get a little bit better. Obviously thee are a lot of bad times, but then I simply find something that I still enjoy, to put all my attention on, instead. Finding the high-carb low-fat vegan lifestyle has helped me immensely, as well as Pat’s constant support. I’m starting to yoga again, slowly, which is helping a lot, as I sleep better on the days that I do it, I don’t feel anxious and feel more in-control of my emotions and actions.

“Take it one day at a time”, most people say. But it is difficult, feeling this way every day. It’s taken a long time to get to this point. I know that I can do this. I will do this.

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Posted by on June 18, 2013 in Serious Stuff

 

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British Summer Over Already??!!

So, it would seem that our summer has already been and gone!! Or so my Dad says 😉

We did have about 10 nice days in a row. Some time last month. Is that all we deserve?? Well, let’s hope not!! It’s pretty rare for the sky to be this blue and this clear over here..

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But now we have rain again. Rain and wind. Cold rain and wind. Why am I so frustrated by this?? Well, a few weeks ago, Pat and I started going to the lakes again, where we used to sit and hang out in our first 2 years, before college and everything else started. We’ve found a nice quiet spot on a “pond dipping” platform, where we can watch the ducks and swans, and dip our feet in the water without getting splash-attacks from playful dogs 😛 which aaaalways happens to us!!

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The thing is, after a little while, we decided to get a picnic mat to sit on, so that we don’t have to sit on the dirt and lots of duck mess.. on the platform. We also wanted to do some yoga in the sunshine ((I’ve got Pat into yoga 😀 !!)). But, of course, now that we have the mat, we’ve had no more warm sunny days. I’m sure that we bought the mat on the last sunny day that we had!! Grr..

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If you’re not in the UK, you may not be aware of the floods and storms we’ve been having over the past 2 weeks. People have had their driveways flooded, their garden fences collapsing in from the force of harsh winds, and even had their pathways blocked by fallen trees.

Me?? I’ve been spending a lot of time inside. When not doing my 100 squats every day, I’ve been bored into doing housework, watching bad movies and just trying to keep warm!! Just kidding, I actually like housework 😛 ((weird teen..)), but it has been very cold here!!

Pat has kept me company a lot 🙂 we watched a film the other day, called Battle Royale.

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It’s quite a scary Japanese film about a high school class of students who are kidnapped and gassed, unknowingly thinking that they are just going on a fun school trip. When they wake, they all have metal rings around their necks, that can explode at the push of a button. Furthermore, they have to spend three days on an excluded island, where they must fight to the death, until only one remains. If they fail to kill each other, they will be blown up!! So, each and every one of them are being forced to fight for their own life. It’s a pretty grisly movie, to say the least!! If you’re interested in watching it, I hope that you’re not in school, or that you watch it with someone else!!

Of course, I’ve been up to more than just watching movies and swans ;P . I’ve also been cycling on the days that it hasn’t been pouring so hard that you can barely see a thing a bit, trying to average about 10 miles a day, over the month. I’ve cycled about 80 miles this month, but now have misplaced my Velo 😦 . I’ve been keeping up to date with fitness by getting inspired by TribeSports. It’s an awesome site, where you can challenge yourself and others to try new sports and test yourself to go further in your current routines. I love it!! If you check it out, follow me here and I’ll follow you right back!!

Right, that’s about it for now. To leave you, I’ll share with you a picture of my dinner the other day. I had an awesome steak and chips….

My Steak n Chips ;)

Portobello Mushrooms = Juicy Steak 😛

 
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Posted by on May 18, 2013 in Serious Stuff

 

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Spring Is Here!!

So, the weather here in Kent has been erratic the last month or so. One day it’s cold all day until the evening, the next it’s really hot with no breeze at all. Then on the weather they tell us it’s going to snow the next day!!

Just a few days ago the wind was so strong around here that it sounded like the windows were going to cave in!! Yesterday, I got sunburn all over my face 😉

Anyways, we have had some gorgeously sunny days, and I have definitely been taking advantage of the weather 🙂

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I’ve been cycling and walking more, taking photos of everything of course 😛 and just generally trying to soak up as much vitamin D as possible!!

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These pictures are of Mote Park and Leybourne Lakes. I have some more and will be taking a lot more, as well as snapping some pics of Pat’s Dad’s amazing garden ((and Elle, too, of course!!)).

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So, that’s all this post is about really 🙂 .

The weather and making the most of it. Getting outside even when you don’t feel like it, is important. Once you’re out there, you won’t regret it!! Just push yourself to take that first step out of the door and you’re set. The rest is easy.

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Make A Choice!!

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See you soon!!

 
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Posted by on May 2, 2013 in Photography, Serious Stuff

 

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